Friday, February 12, 2010

Jesus Christ Answers and Says:

Me: "I am sorry, I am so sorry for what I have done to you!"

"I forgive you."

Me: "Why?"

"I love you."

Monday, February 8, 2010

The Forgotten God

Hi Blog World.

I am sitting in the Wake Forest Coffee Company. I have been here for quite a while and have quite a while to go but I needed a break from graphing x(x+2)>0 and reading about early westward expansion in the United States.

I love WFCC for a couple reasons.
1. I can sit, listen to music, get free internet, do homework without being bothered by family or dogs or anything.
2. All around me are Seminary students and i get to sit here and hear many conversations about the Lord and it just gives me a smile.

Today I am sitting in "my chair"... a big lounge chair in the corner with a side table and a great view of the rest of the shop. I am listening to "Holy" by Jesus Culture and blogging. :)

I can't help but smile right now... not because of where I am or what Im doing but for the sole reason that the Holy Spirit dwells within me. I know He does because their is a new joy within me and their is a new reason to love and smile. I love people and family more than I used to. I can hardly handle the love that fills my heart! It is unlike anything I have ever felt before.

A friend and I were sitting at Brueggers one afternoon just hanging out and we had this conversation about the Holy Spirit and how we commonly disregard Him as a powerful part of the Holy Trinity. We felt the constant tug to come to Him but we resisted so much. My friend gave me this analogy.... Its like we are standing behind the door and pushing with all our might. On the other side of the door is the Holy Spirit. As hard as we push there is still some of the Holy light that pours into the room and with every bit of light our longing for that grows but because of human nature and worldly fears of His power we push harder against the door. ... After that conversation my friend and I started fighting in prayer for each other and ourselves personally. We prayed that the Holy Spirit would crush that door we were hiding behind and fight His way into our hearts.

... that was about 2 or 3 months ago and I can honestly by the name of the Lord most High say that the Holy Spirit answered our prayers and came "in widely, swords swinging" (excerpt from a song by Jess Ray and the Rag Tag Army) and fought for us and lit up our hearts with a burning longing fire and a joyful soul.

Of course I can never claim to know the Holy Spirit fully but slowly He is claiming me and my life and I willingly give it up for His use! For the change He has already made has just been the most incredible time period of my life! Its almost indescribable. Worship has become so personal and insanely important to me. Worldly fears that I had struggled with before have ceased. My heart filled with more love for everyone... that is excluding almost no one! I can hardly believe it myself!

The Holy Spirit is powerful and not to be forgotten or afraid of.

Worthy Father, Loving Savior, Holy Spirit I exalt thee,

ps. The Forgotten God is a book by Francis Chan... READ IT

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Snowy Raleigh... What are the odds?

(Indie in the snow)

Snow Day # 5

With 5 days of snow, 3 days off of school, 7+ people in my house, 2 dogs, too many hours spent watching tv, absurd amount of computer time, and too little amount of hours slept...

Im over the snow. ha.


I am sitting here listening to one of my favorite musical artists, Ray Lamontagne! His voice combined with the flickering light from the fireplace and the warm steamed hot chocolate in my mug is making for a good night.

I have enjoyed my snow days immensely! They have been fantastic and were very much welcomed at the beginning.

Day 1 : Friday - Met the youth group at the church and left for the mountains... had a great ride up to Greensboro before it started to snow and we had to turn around because it was too dangerous! Got home and was a bit sad because my Sister and make-believe sister were stuck up on the mountain!

Day 2: Saturday - Woke up and relaxed for a bit and had breakfast. Then went outside with the family with our dogs and had a great time just playin around. Then a family movie was in order. By the end of the day the family was on edge and grumpy for no apparent reason other than being stuck all together without our comic relief aka Whitney.

Day 3: Sunday - More snow, more movies, more computer. Then Whit and Jess got back from the mountains and came over(to keep the Snow Day Tradition alive) Then we went on a walk on the golf course and went snowboarding and sledding down the hills. When we got back we warmed up together by watching or attempting to watch a movie... and then ultimately just going to sleep ha.

Day 4: Monday - After being stuck in the house for a while we (Jess, Whit, Sam and I) decided that it was time to go on an adventure to the Wake Forest Coffee Co. getting there we ran into some minor slippery mishaps (hehe) but arrived safely. There we sat for hours doing homework and reading together until it was dinner time and so we left and went to dinner with the family. Then Jess and Whitney left with Indie back to the apt because they both had to work in the morning. In their place came : Josh, HG, and Beth. From there we made a massive fire in the fire pit and the girls roasted hotdogs and marshmellows while the boys went and threw snowballs at cars! ha (typical) ... after that we hung out and talked until about 4ish then all fell deep into sleeptown.

Day 5: Tuesday - Still no school. Hg and Josh hung out for a while and we just hung out and spent quality time with friends. But all of these lovely things must come to an end. So they went back home and now here we are. I am sitting in my living room drowning myself in Snowy Night Perfection.

The only problem is that tomorrow we still are out of school!!! What to do... what to do!

Well I plan on getting sleep tonight, ill keep you updated on Day 6!