Thursday, July 31, 2008

The prayer of the year to come




I just sat here for about a minute just staring at my keyboard. I couldn't get my fingers to move, mostly because i don't know what to say. I am thinking about this new school year that i am about to start here in less than a month. I have no idea what i am about to step into. I know there are "for certains" such as, I am going to laugh, cry, praise, thank, find, learn, grow, smile, help, disappoint, love, dislike, write, blink, breathe, and much more. But what will i laugh at? Who will i laugh with? How much will i grow? Where and what will i learn? How much will i help, if any? The future holds on to so many questions that fill my mind.

My best friend is moving out, how will i deal with that fact? I haven't even grasped it yet. I have been asked how i feel about it, but i don't because really i have tried not to think of it. If at all possible. The thought of having to live everyday knowing that i may not be able to see her. Will our relationship stay at a stand still, grow, or will it grow distant? The last time this happened we didnt have the relationship we have now. Having to deal with the rest of the people in this house alone scares me. No one else gets along like we do. She says I will always be over there, but i know i wont be. And i don't want to be that pesky little sister calling all the time and wondering when i will get to come over again. Not to mention how this will effect my time at my youth group, i will have no taxi anymore. Okay enough of this, i don't want to talk about it anymore.




My Prayer
"God, You know my heart. I've laid it down before You
God, You know my deep desire. How I only want to honor You
and i know, that You've got the desire of my heart
and You've got it set apart
You know the better thing- so i've simply got to trust
that if you choose not to give me what i want
You'll give me something better.
better is Your plan for me. better is Your perfect timing
better it is when I look through Your eyes"



simply trusting,

Steph


Tuesday, July 29, 2008

A surprise to remember


Usually i don't like surprises, but last night was the best surprise i have ever gotten! Last night my sister was acting a little strange and when she does that i know she is planning something and not telling me so then i knew there was some surprise that i didn't know about. So we went and picked up a couple of good friends and headed to i don't even know where (at this point). We are standing out of Cats Cradle, a cool venue where some awesome bands come and play at sometimes but i just couldn't for the life of me realize who was there last night. Then finally i saw the sign and it read, She & Him. Freak out moment number one. Love Zooey Deschanel, like really do love all her stuff so this was like a dream to actually see her in person! So after a little standing outside and getting tickets for five and eating pizza we went inside and found a good place to stand. They came on and oh my gosh freak out moment number two, which by the way if you know i don't really freak out on the outside just majorly on the inside. They were amazing, better than their CD and there was a pregnant female bassist which was awesome and M. Ward was amazing on electric guitar. It was all just fantastic. After the show was over we went and bought a vinyl of She & Him and three T shirts, one for me, two for amazing friends that couldn't be there with us. So then we went outside and met M. Ward and got him to sign a couple things and then met the bassist and the rhythmic guitarist. It was a most wonderful night that i will remember forever!

Steph

Monday, July 28, 2008

Magic




How to begin? It is almost indescribable. So many fun things to report and i don't think any word can tell of the smile on my face i had the entire weekend.
6 girls laughing, praying, singing, playing, watching movies outside on a projector, surprises, magic, tanning, burning, no name, credebit, sunsets, an odd dinner, weird guy asking if you like the rock and roll, reading, sleeping, smiling lots and lots of smiling, memories, sleeping in one room, grape lady introduction, beasting heavy objects, Finding Neverland and Juno, screaming heard from blocks away, by-pass by-pass, falling asleep in stairwells while praying and listening to a friend play the guitar, first bite of snickers ice cream bar, getting videos secretly of a car full of singing girls.
Basically it was a weekend to remember forever.

Beach Week 08


Okay WARNING this might possibly be the longest post ever but it is multiple days so here we go...


11:55pm Saturday July 19, 2008,
To keep up with my blog with no Internet connection I am going to keep writing in this until I can get online later. So what have I been up to the past few hours of this wonderful day. Well it all started when I woke up this morning at 7:30am and straight into a family decision that lasted 2 HOURS!! The debate was to go to the beach or not. A whole week of sun, sand and friends. But overnight that was all at stake, a tropical storm was about to hit right in the exact spot we were to be going for that grand week away from the business of home. After a whole lot of “discussions” we were on our way. A full 3 hours with a great friend laughing, taking pictures, and listening to music on the way to the wonderful beach. Then we arrived to the wet and rainy beach condo. Although things seemed grim my brother and sisters and I put on our bathing suits and went to play in the rain like we were children again. After the fun in the rain we were invited to friends for a Pig Picking. Oh and the fun just started rolling. It all started by playing a fun game of a modified Home Run Derby. When the pig was ready we all ate out on the porch watching the sun start to set, having a great time with friends. Then the golf cart fun began. The whole group of us went to a closed golf course and rode around the course in golf carts and for us three people to a cart and pictures taken from weird angles. A walk downtown and then fishing was next, out off the dock two sharks were caught. As we sat on the dock waiting for bites, we watched in awe as a wall of water raced toward us. In shock of how fast that band of the tropical storm hit us, we ran. Laughing the entire way and getting completely wet at the same time. It was an all around amazingly fun day. Only three hours of sleep are getting to me so I am going to answer that call for closed eyes and shallow breathing by going into that dark room and lying on my soft pillow.
~Happy, smiley, hopeful, giggly, sleepy, excited, joyful
Goodnight, Steph.

11:58pm Sunday July 20, 2008,
Today I woke up to the sweet smell of sour dough French toast, yumm. After filling ourselves with the tasty bread we sat and relaxed until the clouds passed by our windows. Then it was to the beach, although a little cloudy, still we had a blast. The waves crashed right on top of us, literally. Because of that tropical storm the waves were rolling high above our heads. A little knocking around later we exited the beach on our way to the calm pool. There we swam, read, and just relaxed. When the rain started back again we went back into our condo and just watched a little TV and some took showers. The phone rang on my sister’s cell and it was our lovely friend calling from just down the beach a little ways. So we took a little family walk down to the pier and met our friend. There we watched a, lets just say, interesting man down on the beach. We got a slight kick out of that one. 6:00pm slid up on up fast and soon it was time for us to go back for some dinner. So we said our goodbyes for now and headed back the 1.5 mile trek back to our end of the beach. Part of the Titanic and some Charlie and the Chocolate Factory later dinner was served to some starving children. When dark arrived the boys set out to the beach and had a mini illegal fireworks show, the big finale is coming later in the week, shhh don’t tell. The girls of the family set out to join them but a little to late because they were already packing up. Passing the lit glassy pool made me crave to dive in and ripple that smooth chlorine water, so that’s exactly what I did. Luckily, I had my bathing suit on from the previous festivities of the day. Some of my other siblings joined in a few minutes later. Usually anything family related fun includes a competition, especially if we are in water. So we being Drummonds started a treading water competition to the death, without the death part. And if that Rent-A-Cop hadn’t told us to get out of the pool we would have been out there all night, because none of us would give up on the title. Then back to the condo and the wonderful film Titanic. Which by the way just makes me sad but when you combine it with a little Oceans Thirteen during the commercials it makes for a great few hours. When the credits rolled I jumped in the shower and now the morning hours have just popped up onto the screen and that reminds me I have a whole lot of beach tomorrow and that requires sleep. So off to bed I go hopefully I get to sleep in a little before I am forced out by my anxious siblings.
~Sleepy, burnt, wet, content, chilly, completely happy.
Goodnight, Steph

10:04pm Monday 7/21/08,
Today started really lazy, I mean literally rolling out of bed and laying on the floor for a few minutes. Then directly out onto the beach for a hot and sandy day. My parents, sister and I walked down the beach a while and on our return to our part of the beach we lept into the cool water. The waves were really pounding today, one after another crashing over us. We then laid out in the sun reading until we got hot and to the pool we went. After a few contests and sharks and minnows we just laid out some more. At around 3:00pm my sister got a call from that friend I have been speaking of the last few days and she told my sister that they were going to go horse back riding together. My sister was so excited, therefore I was excited for her. Our friend got to our condo and we hung out at the pool for 30 minutes and had a blast for those little thirty minutes. But it turns out I didn't go out of the sun from 11:00am to 3:30pm. So I came up and went directly to the shower. My family drug me to go on an excursion and that included going to a place where the next Scooby Doo will be filmed and going to a pier that had a bunch of dumb teens snorting crack in public. Not to mention the moron that tried to hit on me. I gave him look like “Do I really care what you are talking about? And why are you still in my presence?” and he scurried away, it was genius. But now I am watching a movie and waiting to hear of stories of horses before I go to sleep. Later tonight I when my sister returned with our friend which now I am going to call her “Giggles” we went out on the beach for a walk. The moon was so bright it lit the pathway down the beach. We walked down to this swing set that is on the beach and Giggles and I swung so high we thought we could reach those beautiful stars above us. Then we just sat out and star gazed and laughed at stupid things such as necks and factual facts. Then we started the trek back to our beds and car and that included teasingly trying to push some people into the water and crabs grabbing ankles. Sleep now.
~ Tan, headachey, giggly, sleepy, thinking, blessed, thankful.
Goodnight, Steph


11:12pm,Tuesday, 7/22/08
Today we kinda slept in, well at least until 11am which is pretty good for the beach. And that is where we headed. We went out in the rough waves and then to the calm pool. Giggles came and beached it with us later in the afternoon. We hung out for a couple hours before Giggles left to go get cleaned up and we went to get showers and dinner. So after dinner we met Giggles back up and went and saw Hancock which was a decent movie, kinda weird though. We all returned to the condo for some illegal fireworks. We waited until 10:00pm until going to the beach to shoot the fireworks off. But while we waited we played a classic game of Pac Man. Giggles had never played before so it was quite fun. After I won with a score of 13290 we went back out to the beach. The wind was blowing hard so we pointed the fireworks into the wind and started the fuse. But I don’t think any of us were ready for the huge fireworks that came down upon us. It was hilarious, we all scattered in all directions, while trying to watch the flaming sparks fly down on us. It was all worth it. We went back to our condo and started a game of Clue. It has been a tradition for this group to play Clue and everyone has won at least once, except Giggles. But guess what, she won!! Soon after that she left to go back to her house for the night and we went straight to our bed.
Goodnight, Steph


Wednesday 7/23/08
We sunned it today, all we did all day was swim a little bit and lay out. Then night arrived and we got ready and headed to dinner, which was pretty fantastic might add. After dinner we headed to meet with Giggles and a friend that had come in to town. We went and had ice cream and sat outside and talked. Then we walked down the street to Giggles house and played a little home-run-derby in the dark before hitting the dock for some night fishing. We had a wonderful time fishing with bare hands and of course with regular poles. The night had to come to an end at some point so we piled into the car and headed to the island.

Steph

Thursday 7/24/08

Today was all about friends. We woke up a little later and just sat on our balcony and just laughed then when our friends arrived later that day we headed straight for the beach. At the beach we made a turtle in the sand together and we swam and had a lot of fun. My dad came and called us in for lunch which was spectacular. We hung out for a little bit before having to say goodbye to Giggles and our other friend. After showers and getting ready we headed out to meet Giggles at a coffee shop. Then we packed into one car and went to dessert at a place with fake names and a wet table now. But before we went in we went to the pier and walked down and took pictures and then watched a little bit of Ice Age in the car until our name was called to be seated. The night ended with my sister and I at Giggles house for the weekend but that's for another post.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

New Joy


I have prayed many times in the past few months this one prayer. To have it answered is such a complete joy. The prayer; to have my little brother come to really know Christ Jesus as his savior. Last night those prayers were answered with a boom and a smile fills my face now. I want to thank two people right now that have made such an impact on my brother's life. But i will leave that until i see them face to face again soon. With a new joy filling my heart,


Steph

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Late Nights and My Girl

There is something about staying up late and writing. Well staying up late in general. I am a night owl by heart. I am always staying up late even on school nights. Usually it doesn't bother me during the day, it just doesn't effect me. I don't have a curfew or a bedtime during the summer, so my summer is full of these late nights that i love. Sitting in a dark room, watching a movie that may or may not be good. Or listening to music and spending time with the LORD. I think the night is the best time to go to the LORD. When all the world seems so quiet and you are all by yourself, it is so perfect.


A little off topic, okay a lot off topic. I am watching My Girl, you know the 1991 movie with Anna Chlumsky and Macaulay Culkin, anyway this movie is so sad, but you cant help but love it. Well i cant. When Vada goes into the funeral and walks up to the open casket and starts yelling at everyone to put Thomas' glasses cause he cant see and tells everyone that he wanted to be an acrobat, if i cried at movies i would bawl right there. But i love it and that's that.

To Do List

Okay reading over my last few post they have been mostly Debby Downerish so therefore i write Heather Happy stuff now.



Ahhh the beach only a few days between me and sun, sand, and a whole lot of fun.
TO DO LIST:
~I plan on completely getting away for the entire week and having the most fun i possibly can out of these 9 days.
~I plan on taking some Joel Houston, Darlene Zschech, and Brooke Fraser out to the beach one night and singing, praising at the top of my lungs.
~ Getting tan (as much as i can possibly get tan)
~ Go out on the beach at night with all my friends and look at the stars
~ Swing on the beach at night
~ Swim as much as i can
~ Pray for Kosova everyday I am there
~ Finish my book "Searching for God Knows What" by Donald Miller
~ Watch a movie in my bed with my sister on our dad's laptop
~ Tell my friends that i love them so much
~ Relax
~ Get to know someone better
~ Get a flip flop tan
~ Smile the entire trip
~ Make other people smile
~ Blog about my trip while im there
~ Take tons of pictures AND videos
~ Create a funny story to tell over and over again for years to come
~ Bring something back from the trip that will make me remember and laugh
~ Not get burnt (okay impossible but a girl can wish)
~ Shnuggle really Shnuggle and not be stiff
~ Laugh
~ HAVE FUN


Stephie

Monday, July 14, 2008

I Want...

I think i could type for hours on end just because i love the feeling of it. If i just had enough thoughts and things to write about i would type for days. Give me a quite room and a computer. Leave me to my thoughts and i could go wild. Technically not wild, because if you know me i don't go wild, ever. I feel like rambling right now going on about nothing. So here i go. I want a typewriter real bad to write cool notes and poems or whatever i feel like. I want a lot of things,
I want a night where i sit outside on a beach with my friends and laugh and have no worries at all and i want a hug right now at 11:19pm from someone specific because she has the best, I want my sister to never have to cry again, I want the world to know Christ Jesus as their Savior! I want Youth Group to start again, I want worship to never end on Sundays, I want my friend's band to succeed in every way, I want to go to college, I want to travel with a big Youth conference doing tech work, I want DZ to email my friend back, I want to travel Europe and smile the entire time, I want to laugh for an entire 10 mins without stopping with my best friends right beside me, I want 10 days to go by fast, I want my high school years to go by slowly, I want to sleep later than 11am every morning, I want to remember every moment of these past few years FOREVER, I want Gilmore Girls to really make a movie like they said they would, I want to be able to shnuggle without automatically freezing up, I want to sleep under the stars one night, I want to learn as much as i can about music, I want my friend to know she is going to be an amazing teacher, I want to see my brother grow in Christ, i want to say a million more hellos than goodbyes, and right now i want to sleep.

~Who else but me~

The Recipe for Crying to Smiling


Have you ever felt just worn down? Like you just want to sit in a quiet room, alone, and cry your heart out. Shut your eyes and wish yourself into a state of not thinking about anything. Right now for me is just one of those times. But lately i never have seemed to get that time alone with myself and God so these feelings just get pushed back for another time. I have done that so much these past few weeks that its just gotten bigger and bigger that i cant handle it anymore. It just seems like this thing i am dealing with is never going to go away and it hurts so much. I don't want to see pain anymore. But i know that until i am with that gracious God i adore in heaven that i am going to see pain, physical and metal. I am sitting alone right now, wow alone, i thought i wouldn't get to see that in a long time. Outside, laptop resting on my crossed legs, eyes probably a little red, cheeks wet, nose running, and ears filled with songs of the One i need right now.

"I trust in You. I trust in You. I believe Your my healer. I believe your all i need. I believe..."

I know I have heard this song over and over again but really every time I listen to it gives me so much hope and adoration for this outrageously loving God. And even when I am in pain or i see someone I love in pain it brings be back to realizing I need to come back to Him and only Him because He is my healer, He is faithful, He is loving without limits, He is gracious, He is more than enough for me.

The Recipe for Crying to Smiling (for me anyway):

1 hour alone with God
1 smile from someone you love
1 to a billion songs praising the LORD
1 big long hug from one of the people closest to you
Hours with people you care about
A million times saying I LOVE YOU LORD! YOU ARE MY ALL AND I HAVE NOTHING WITHOUT YOU!
Steph

Sunday, July 13, 2008

And the things that make me Sad and/or Unhappy...


The sad or unhappy factor: seeing pain in the eyes of someone close to you, not being able to do anything about that pain, not being able to stop crying, the feeling when you are about to crumble, goodbyes, a feeling i had this morning, that feeling in your stomach when you see someone you love hurting, seeing one of your friends crying, a world that doesn't know Christ, when i fail, its a lot smaller than the happy post but this one still holds a lot of power in these words.
~Steph~