Sunday, November 23, 2008

Let Your Glory Fall

Tonight was amazing...

During worship tonight i was flattened...completely flattened. I mean I was no longer about me it was only about Him, Christ Jesus my Lord!! It was the kind of worship where your hands dont ever get high enough for Him and my voice was never loud enough [ even if it is flat or off key, i didnt care cause all I wanted to do was praise!] and my smile was never wide enough...those are the times i wish i had a "Ray" smile, you know the ones im talking about...the amazingly large smiles that all the Rays have and every time they smile it makes you know what im talkin about. Anywho back to worship, at one point I couldnt do anything but fall on my knees and sing...

"Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart, in my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise

From the inside out Lord, my soul cries out"

I love the feeling of being nothing but His. I wanted to worship all night!!!

The message tonight was also amazing! I want to have a Brilliant Life for Christ!! That is the cry of my heart. Im screaming it at the top of my lungs...I WANT TO BE YOURS AND FOR YOU TO WORK THROUGH ME...I WANT TO LIVE FULLY FOR YOU I WANT TO SHINE FOR YOU I WANT YOU!! That is my desire more than anything. And the things that Dan are saying in this series are cutting me to the core and i love it. At the end of tonight i was bowing down on my knees praising and crying and I want His plan for me and I dont want to waste time doing the things that arent of Him...reveal to me the call on my life!

By the end of this lovely night I got to hold tight onto her hand. I didnt want to let go! Im a coward really...I should have held onto her hand and drug her away to a place where we could have talked but there were a few reasons on why i couldnt have done that

1.) There was JH MASH tonight so there wasnt time
2.) Im a coward

Mostly the second one is to blame. I mean she is my mentor and she is my friend and she is someone that I look up to and I could talk to her about anything and she would be more than happy to listen to me...i know, i have told myself this many a time BUT again with the I am a coward part of the equation. I cant get up the courage to ask her the simple "can i talk to you for a moment?" Ive mouth even opened one time but i backed out really fast! Whitney is getting angry at me [as much as Whitney can get mad a me =)] for not talking to her. And i dont think this person reads this thing... i dont know maybe she does but i dont think so...So im gunna continue to be a coward.

Im a coward,


Katie Smith said...

Don't be a coward. Most likely story, all she wants is for you to come up and ask her to talk. She would be ecstatic to hear you say that.

Whitney said...

And I am not mad!! I used to be SO like that! I understand...I'm just sayin' that sooner is better than later. Letting things fester is never good! Love you ;)