Monday, December 22, 2008

Let's be honest




To be honest...ive been in this groove lately that i keep on failing and as much as I am trying to get back on my feet and hold onto Christ's outstretched welcoming hand I cant. I seem to be reaching but instead of grasping it i fall on the ground again and it is wearing on my heart, my body, my mind, my relationships...my everything. I can keep a smile on my face and be happy when i am out and about but it is getting harder and harder with each passing moment...

I am staring a notebook right in front of me, it is begging me to unfold it's cover and taint its clean lined paper. The cover is so beautiful and the note inside is even prettier. And i want to write and sharpen like the little note says but I dont want to just write anything cause this is too special to me for my pen just to scribble words of nonsense on those lovely pages. Even since i have gotten this dear notebook i have carried it with me wherever i go, not wanting to let it out of my sight.


"God, my God, I cry out
Your beloved needs You now
God, be near calm my fear and take my doubt
Your kindness is what pulls me up
Your love is all that draws me in

I will lift my eyes to the Maker
of the mountains I can't climb
I will lift my eyes to the Calmer
of the oceans raging wild
I will lift my eyes to the Healer
of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You

God, my God, let mercy sing
her melody over me
and God, right here all I bring
is all of me
Your kindness is what pulls me up
Your love is all that draws me in


I will lift my eyes to the Maker
of the mountains I can't climb
I will lift my eyes to the Calmer
of the oceans raging wild
I will lift my eyes to the Healer
of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You


'Cause You are and You were and You will be forever
the Lover I need to save me
'Cause You fashioned the earth and You hold it together, God
so hold me now

I will lift my eyes to the Maker
of the mountains I can't climb
I will lift my eyes to the Calmer
of the oceans raging wild
I will lift my eyes to the Healer
of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You

God, my God, I cry out
Your beloved needs You now"


Tonight I will open that notebook and i will write with no hesitation. I will write of His glory and His love. I will write so i can express my thoughts and I will most definitely enjoy sharing my feelings with the LORD! Because I love Him most and my desire is to follow hard after Him only.

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